Part of the reason I haven’t been consistent with creating doodles because I have been on a spiritual rollercoaster. I have not been a good model of what a child of God should look like. I was struggling through a spell of depression and handling stress in an unhealthy way. I was oppressed by sin. I felt like a hypocrite, therefore I was uninspired to invigorate. It felt wrong to encourage others to be great when I was not so great. Maybe that’s the stuff I should have been talking about.

In my mess God would tell me I will overcome the internal struggles I was experiencing. In my mess he whispered words of love and encouragement. He prophesied my repentance. He was confident in my ability to rise when I wasn’t confident in myself. I thought to myself, if God knows all things he must be right. Slowly I began to heal myself and change the behaviors that were holding me back from success and freedom. I did this by surrendering my emotions to Christ.

If he didn’t show me this grace I would not have been able to restore myself. I would have perished if I didn’t believe in the truths he whispered to me. Because I trusted him I was able to shed the guilt that trapped me in a state of despair. There is no condemnation in Christ! Because I believed his word the Holy Spirit was able to give me supernatural strength to push through pain, confusion, doubt and fear. Then I was truly able to live again and turn from sinful thoughts and behavior. God knows us better than we know ourselves. God is with you, no matter what level you are on spiritually. Never forget God has confidence in you, so do I!